my chosen name is a slur, what do i do?

so, i’m non-binary and i only just came out a few months ago. i’ll keep this frank, my chosen name is Haji, which i came up with by spelling my given name backwards and removing a few letters. recently i found out it’s a derogatory term towards muslims, and you’re probably thinking “so change it then” but i’m so attached to this name, and i honestly cant imagine feeling comfortable with any other one. it sounds ridiculous probably, but that’s why i’m talking to other people who have chosen their names. i feel like someone here could understand me, i really do love my name, it’s the truest i’ve ever felt with myself, and it’s so perfectly androgynous for me. and it’s still a remnant of the person i was born as, but i’m conflicted on whether i should just change it, even though itd be painful for me to detach from it because i’m so attached. and the mental blow of knowing i have to choose between my own comfort and the greater good. i mean the choice seems pretty obvious, but i just don’t know.