Nonbinary or FTM?

Yo hello, so recently i started dating a girl and i've been feeling some deep relief when it comes to the pressure of heternormative feminitity. with that i have also been feeling more dysphoria when it comes to my voice and chest. I have adhd and i have been deep diving into top surgry and stuff but honestly i just don't know how i feel. I feel the most dysphoria when i'm online to much. I also feel my attraction to women is inherently gay but so is my attraction to men. How do people navigate confustion over gender mixed with over dysphoric feelings that may be caused by social media.